Lyrics

I don’t know anything anymore
I thought I was strong
I thought I stood so tall
I guess I was wrong

I’ve been peering out through fog-ridden windows
Stealing glances over cold stone walls
Watching lovers walking hand-in-hand down rain-slick streets
And laughing as they fall

CHORUS
As a child, I took pride in bumps in bruises
I wore my battle wounds on my sleeves with a smile
But children grow old, toughen up, and wounds scab over
And it is harder to love when you’re trying to survive
I’ve spent my whole life aiming never to be broken
But I’m in pieces underneath my skin
And I’m not calling out for somebody to come and pry me open
I just want to let somebody in

I’ve been starving my body out of spite
Purposely vanishing
At the heart of it, I just wanted to be missed
Or valued for who I am
And not what I can do to help

CHORUS
As a child, I stood firm right through the drama
I bore my battle wounds and my band-aids with a smile
But children grow old, band-aids fray, and wounds scab over
And it is harder to love when you’re trying to survive
I’ve spent my whole life aiming never to be broken
But I’m in pieces underneath my skin
And I’m not calling out for somebody to come and pry me open
I just want to let somebody in

As a child, I took pride in bumps in bruises
I wore my battle wounds on my sleeves with a smile
And children grow old, toughen up, and wounds scab over
But if you’ve got no one to love, then no one cares if you survive

CHORUS
As a child, I fought to keep everyone happy
And I lost time and time again
But I am grown now, and I’m begging you to hear me
‘Cause my hope is gone, and my walls are caving in
I’ve spent my whole life pretending I’m not broken
And I am strong somewhere beneath this concrete skin
So I will use these jagged rocks and I will build a new foundation
I just want to let somebody in